the priest had a radiant face
that shined with grace
with a trembling hand he served
holy water to chosen ones that deserved
a smile that showed the heart was content
serving the lord his only intent
seeing a crowd he burst with joy
behold thy devotees, oh lord, thought he, as his aged body permeated with joy
this is where i belong, this is my seat
serving your cause and praying at your lotus feet
with my stoic nature i absorbed all these
and moved on thinking, a soul was at peace
a few minutes later elsewhere
as my ease was becoming despair
another man of god
called to me, come behold my lord
i thought the man man wanted money
so i moved on disgusted
he had meant to serve 'prasadam' sweet as honey
that i missed with purpose, but to my family it was presented
as the temple gates closed by noon
i felt nauseated, my head began to swoon
soon we left the holy place
uneasy as i was i needed solace
i realised i got more than i asked
though not unique there are a few of my kind
that in the grace of god have basked
humbled i am and i wonder what is it for which i am destined?
ignorant i was all the time
difficult it is to know the sublime
the more i suffer, more i pray
when do i realise the supreme, i eagerly wait for that day.
The art of living
Sunday 23 June 2013
Wednesday 19 June 2013
I was scrolling through the pages of this book ‘the road
less travelled and beyond’, and I found it amazing that its contents were so
similar to what our teacher had said on the first day of the level one course of 'art of living' and so I decided to share this amazing coincidence that is found so educating that I just couldn't stop myself from sharing this.
Take for example the instance of a child which when tickled laughs with joy so
profound that the whole of its body starts trembling. That is the kind of
innocence we are supposed to bring in ourselves and give in our 100% in
whatever we do just an innocent child does. In his book Dr. Peck explains the
same. All of us are essentially conscious but only in different state of
consciousness. A child's conscious is still at the level of emotions and has
not grown, precisely the reason for innocence in children. This consciousness
begins to grow with age. I would like to quote sentences from the book to
exactly give the essence to the reader:
“... Awareness or consciousness is in terms of what is known
as ego development, which is very much a development of consciousness… ego is
the governing part of our personality and that its development- the maturity of
this governor- can be delineated in overall three stages.
The first stage, that of early childhood is one of an
absolute lack of self-consciousness. Here the ego is totally down at the level
of emotions and enmeshed with them. It is this lack of self-consciousness that
makes young children so frequently charming and seemingly innocuous. When they
are joyful, they are one hundred percent joyful. They are marvellous spontaneous
and innocent. But it is this same lack of self consciousness that can so often
make them difficult. For when the children are sad, they are also one hundred
percent sad, sometimes to the point of being inconsolable. And when they are
angry, their anger will erupt in temper tantrums and sometimes violent and
vicious behaviour.
There are glimmerings of self-consciousness by the age of
nine months, and the capacity for self-awareness very gradually increases
throughout childhood. In adolescence, however it undergoes a dramatic growth
spurt. For the first time young people have quite obvious ‘observing ego’. Now
they can observe themselves being joyful or sad or angry while they are feeling
so. This means that the ego is no longer wholly confined to the level of
emotions. Now a part of it-the observing ego – is detached from the emotions,
above them looking on. There is a certain resulting loss of spontaneity.
The observing ego is still not fully developed in
adolescence. Thus adolescents are frequently spontaneous, sometimes dangerously
so. At other times, however, they seem to be nothing but a mass of affectations
as they self-consciously try on one new identity after another by wearing
bizarre hairstyles and clothes and behaving outrageously. Constantly comparing
themselves with peers and parents, these seemingly flamboyant creatures are
often painfully shy and suffer innumerable spasms of excruciating embarrassment
and self-deprecation.
Since self-consciousness often becomes painful at this stage
of psychosocial and spiritual development, many people move into adulthood
forsaking rather than continuing it’s development. Because they fail to further
develop their observing egos once they enter adulthood, their self-observing
capacity becomes modulated (and less painful), but his often occurs only
because of an actual shrinkage in consciousness. When, unwittingly, the
majority settle for a limited-even diminished- awareness of their own feelings
and imperfections, they have stopped short on the journey of personal growth,
thereby failing to fulfill their human potential or grow into true
psycho-spiritual power.
But a fortunate
minority, for reasons both mysterious and graceful, continues the journey, ever
strengthening their observing ego rather than allowing them to atrophy…
The exercise of this observing ego is crucial because if it
becomes strong enough, the individual is then in a position where they can
proceed to the next stage and develop … transcending ego. With a transcend ego
we became aware of our broader dimensions, better prepared to decide
realistically when, where and why to express who we are- the good and the bad.
We may develop the capacity to live with, perhaps even laugh at, our
limitations. When we acknowledge our imperfections we find ourselves in a
better position to work on those areas within our power to change and to accept
those things we cannot…”
For those fortunate few I would encourage to continue on
their path of psycho-social and spiritual enlightenment.
I found people in my sessions that I could relate to
different states of consciousness, with me being in a state of transcended
consciousness. People such as me are more than aware of what we are doing and
have reigned our actions and emotions with tight ropes. Sometimes so tight that
we cannot let it loose even when we want to. Others have no bounds on their
emotions and behave in a manner that can be termed hysterical.
The key is to strike a fine balance between to the two, isn't
that in the true sense exactly the Art of Living.
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